*sigh*

I don't really think this has been my week...

Not really sure whatelse to say, Allison and I broke up, broke my foot(I have an update on that, will be later in the post), school has been not so interesting, like a waste of time, poison mould in the house(like the stuff that was found in the clusters at Pine lake camp). All around, it isn't exactly the best memmories ever.

Of course, things could be worse. I continue to live and grow, so it means bad must come with the good. When you enter a relationship, usually, you don't look at the end before you begin... but I did. I knew that it probably wouldn't last, but I figured that it would be worth it... and it was in many ways. However, I (being an inexperienced lummox in this part of life) didn't realize what it would feel like. The hurt doesn't come right away, it comes later. And surprisingly it isn't the kind of hurt you would expect. I, at least, expected a grief, something like the loss of death. But really, its when you forget that it hurts the most, when old memories come up and you realize it won't be like that anymore. When thoughts or feelings from before come to the surface, like they did so many times before and... well... you have to throw them away, because it hurts more to keep them than to do that. In away, it will always be there I think, a shadow of the past. But I don't think that it will be bad.

UPDATE ON MY FOOT.

it turns out that I am not so much of a wuss that I thought. It is worse than the doctors originally thought. its not the break that is causing the pain and swelling, its the ankle...

There are 3 tendons in and around the anke bone, and I have skrewed up 2 of them. One of them is completely ruptured, it is like, 2 hunks of meat in my foot. And the second one is torn, which for those of you that have experienced this, hurts somewhat.

so... here is their verdict. I will have to have the cast on for 6 weeksish. This is to protect the foot more than because I can't walk without it, from bumps and stupid things a person does(like falling down stairs or something). I will also have to go in for more xrays in 3 weeks, because there may be some fractures that they haven't been able to see yet, due to the swelling. And finally I will have to go to Physio Therapy, to ensure that the muscles will heal properly and so that I can relearn how to move my foot.

Nice eh?

All wounds heal

all hurts,
all pains,
all blood,
will heal

depression,
cold,
lonlyness,
leaves.

but it still hurts,
the road we walk,
is filled with glass,
and feet can only take so much.

we live and die,
a visious cycle,
gods hobby,
sucks doesn't it...

but We will continue,
walking the road,
despite the glass,
all wounds heal.

...and a friend never dies.


Anyway, talk to you all later, and I miss all you SAPLC folk. DYB this weekend, will have to figure out whom I will be staying with, and yah, keep on walking.